I feel so lost out of the sudden. No longer able to grasp what is going on around me. I do not know what I am doing. Feeling very stressed up and had totally lost confidence in myself. Today's the impromptu test for me. I sc iup like what I did for my demo test again. I really hate myself. I could have done much better. Sucks. I got a topic which I can talk on, Fuck! What's wrong with me man~