Mitosis....of the renovation processes...

Sianz... Now exam period.... Upstairs and downstairs having renovations. WHY IS THIS ALWAYS HAPPENING?! Then my next exam for next sem, which floor will be renovating again. This is getting psychic and sick.

Feeling so paranoid all these while. Felt that things have not been going well. I can bring myself to think about more things. What do I want? Felt that I have been hurting people with my words and actions. And now I am not being able to be true to myself. Is this really what I want? Now I feel as if the world almost falling apart, and I am in the middle not knowing to go left or right or just let me fall to the deepst of agony. Shucks... I hate this kinda feeling.

Knowing I will flunk both PA and PC, I couldn't care less.... I choose to read at my PLM notes and BPharm... Ha~ life's reverting back to when I am in Year 1. And this sucks... totally.

Frankly speaking, I do not know what I am blogging now. Things are in a mess. Got to know something last night, and it had put me thru a sleep with tosses and turns. Why am I thinking so much? If you;re thinking does the thing I happen to know involves me. I wuld answer, not really... buut YES. It involves the future. But what can I do. What I can do now is to smile and pretend nuth happened.

Feel like I am procrastinating all these while. But what do I really want to do? Life sucks... at some extend. I do agree that life do gave me happiness at some point and another. And its fair enough for me to experience some setbacks and unhappiness. No matter what all these make us grow up and let us learn. But had I really learnt? Guess this question is gg to be left unanswered for quite sometime. Time to get back to my PLM.

Ciaoz..