Harlow... Now in comp lab blogging... AT this time of e day.. e lab is not as crowded. So not as awkward to blog. Partially also maybe mood swings now. Was suddenly thinking. Maybe people (or rather Human, or some people refer as Homosapiens) are born selfish? I do not know. These few days I had encounters which really make me think a lot. No one seems to be true (I am just generalising.. need not care much)... No one seems to be genuine in the things they say. The way they act the things they say are just some superficial surface stuff. Hmm... Think I am in that kinda deep thinking mode again. Cried myself to sleep yesterday. Felt so helpless and lonely suddenly. Maybe I am just all alone again? Looking at how people making use of each other make my heart aches. I am not saying I am making use of people. But it is how people treats me in return when I treat them as my dear ones.

Sigh.... Think nothing is fair in the world. I shall not try to self-pity. But I am not self-pitying k! Maybe I am lost ba. A friend called me telling me how happy she is after breaking free from something. The next minute she called back again crying. Affected my mood of course. But since I am her friend... What can I do? She senses some changes in me. Asked me whether I am getting too tensed up in school or too stressed up. Do make me feel better in a way that at least someone cares about how you are feelign despite of herself having a bad day too. It had been such a long long time I had engage myself in a long chat on phone. Maybe not in the mood even though I have got so many stuff to say. Sigh... All I wish I can do is to maybe travel alone to somewhere out there. Hmm...... So what do I want actually? I need a break...