Sigh...

Right now feeling: Depressed? Or rather inferior?

I do not know what got into me today. It's like a sudden depression? Or I would call it my mood swings. But today situation seems more "jia lat". Looking at the pple who have severals clarifications to be cleared, listening to what the tutor is talking about... FOr me? Ha! Staring into the daze, not knowing what is going on... And like during the tutorial, it is like a time which I am left totally alone to drift into a world of my own. Left alone to "hu shi luan xiang" ba... Feel so lethargic of life and school suddenly. I would usually prefer school over home because I felt damn stressed up at home. No one gives me e minimal respect I ask for.. No one cares about how I feel. I complaint that I am tired, someone at home will say.. " Going to school is not tiring lor... I work whole day den tired..." "Please la, what u have go to tire u out?" "Can wash me PE attire later?" "Can help to clear up the mess in the living room?" I just need someone to hear me out!! I seriously need someone to let me vent all my frustrations. But guess I can only cry them out b4 I sleep? I do not know. No one seems to understand what I want. Perharps because the world do not turn because of 1 individual. So no one will actually go and put in extra effort to ask "How are u feeling?" or stuff like that. I do not dare to ask for anything mroe now because I know I am so much fortunate than so much pple. But still,.... Nvm...

I really do not know what I want at times. Maybe the least (not really actually) I can ask from pple is to not to lie to me... Not to break their promises they had made to me... I just hate that kinda feeling of betrayal. Maybe I am just exegerrating everything here. But who cares isn;t it?

How I wish I can just vanish from this world just like that... Hmm.. Pple out there no need to care much about this (If there are pple who care of course...) Think I am thinkign too much~ Take care folks.. BYE~

-need to study real har... my goals seems to be so far away...-