Tired...

Suddenly felt this big heavy burden laying on my shoulders. I don't know why.. But as I grow up... the family dependency seems to fall on me. Not saying the others is not doing their work or whatsoever. its just this feeling. My mum will come complain to me on any things... My father will expect more and more things from me..

My sis... I know she will read this... But ya, I shan't care... My sis have this tendency to always stressing me over the laundry. Which always left me feeling really frustrated. Cuz I dont get it why should I always be listening to her (Although my mum did help a great deal in helping me to wash her clothes... but her bugging kills) when she herself do not do the things she supposed to do? And she give stupid reasons like 'Clothes is what we need to wear everyday, the floor no need to wear one ma'. This is sucha stupid and selfish reasons. Why she dont think that when she is saying the others are selfish, she herself is displaying all the selfish acts too by roaring at our parents, not showing any respect when answering back? Seriously, as she grow.. sometimes I really cannot stand what she is doing. But yet afterall, she is my sister.

My mum, can see that she is trying very hard and doing a lot for the family, but there is this pressure and stress she put on me. Maybe cuz I am the eldest ba.. Definitely it doesnt feel good when she keep ranting on money non stop.... And also to ask for money after I work.... This sucks too..

My father, no comments actually.. But recently have been self-assuming things that did not happen. And its driving me nuts. I hate people who self-threaten to make the otehr feel guilty. And he is always giving this kinda actions that totally turn me off...

Sometimes I dread coming home... All I want is a solace I can seek for, but somehow at times I couldnt find that comfort zone I want at home. But of course, there are times where I do really feel comfortable at home.

I dont know the point of this post. But I am feeling really tired of everything after I finish the MP poster presentation. And I dont know why. Somehow, I really hope I do have the chance to study overseas and let me know the torment of not being able to stay with your family and so I will be able to cherish and such.

Forget it, I am not going to rant any further... Gotta prepare and meet Janice... Jan I am sorry if these days I have been rather 'wu jing da cai' when I am replying to your messages on msn.... =) And as all the jitters creeps into me I shall stop...

Before I end;
- Good luck to those attending the interview this Sat/Sun
- Well done to those who had already landed themself with a job
- Good luck to those who are looking for a job.

And when all of us are in this social university together, we shall meetup and toast to it. =)

Ciao