I'm suffocating

I can't breathe
What is this that is stranggling me?
Set me free
That all I want it to be

What is this?
That is heavily landing on my shoulders
What is it?
The resolution I am still searching

Let me breathe
Through all this mist
Let me live
Like a vibrant youth again.

Tears filled the brims of my eyes unknowingly on my way home. Why am I feeling this way? Why do I have such a strong urge to cry? Yes, I admit I am feeling very tensed up. From work, project, assignments. But is these all that is stranggling me right now? Yes, I can't breath, at all. Melancholy of life. Sigh..

I want to have a talk with him. Yet I find it so so so so hard to initiate the talk. Maybe writing him a note on my birthday, or his birthday? I don't know. I really don't know.

I am feeling so stuck at my project. I felt so alone. Maybe it's because I do not approach my sup for help. But how to when I saw her stern face? I know its just that face. But I still feel intidimated. 10th week already. After this week, another 10 weeks to go. I am sure I will miss some ppeps there. Haiz...

What is that I want?