Define Trust.

I had fun @ e stayover @ Emily's place. Joanne is a big mischief! LoL!

Sentosa was fun too! It felt nice having to meet some people whom I had not seen for quite sometime, like Yan ming and Joanna. I am so gonna miss Joanna when she goes to Adelaide for her studies.

I changed my msn nick to 'Guys are all stupid selfish sex-minded creatures'. Ha! A few guy friend actually initiate a convo with me. ya, to speak up for their species. One of them whom is Ike, I think I did not talk to him for agessssss already. Haha~ I got what he say. But guess he does not understand the stand I am in thus makes it difficult for me to explain. But I do not see e need to anyway. -.- But hey Ike, I got what you mean. =)

I do understand that not all guys are. But how do you define a person to be good or bad? How do you able to deduce that you're able to trust that special someone or someone close to you? Actually I do not want to think much of that matter already. If not it will set me to another round of depression. I do not want to break down in school again. It is just so embarassing. zzz~ But, I guess all I can do now is to smile, go on with life, and learn to trust again.

I am thankful for friends who're with me. At least they did try to let me take my mind off those digusting things that are going thru my mind.

I am still trying to smile and cover up for all that I know of what had happen. And ya, please applause for me. Think my acting skills had went up a level already. But I tihnk I just need to immunised myself. Haiz..

Term test in another week. It is just so freaking fast. I need my motivation back! I can feel my motivation seeping away. HEY GUYS! I NEED YOU BACK! I want at least a much better grades so that maybe I can try overseas uni (Which I think I won't be able to go at all). But just by knowing I can gain entry is enough for me already. Money is going to be such a big matter to me. And I think no one is gg to support that idea anyway.

I have got so much to let off from my chest. But somehow this do not seems to be a correct medium. I need a talk with someone. But even when I have got that chance to, I realise I do not have the courage to say it out. What is with me again? Man, I hate this. The feeling of wanting to trust, yet afraid to trust.

I am going to stop all these rumblings. Oyasumi Nasai. Kino wa kanashii to ureshii deshita.

Imissbeingintheclub.