I really felt so bottled up now. Feel like bursting. I dun seems to have a choice whether to enjoy my holidays or not. What I got during holidays are just shoutings, naggings form my dearest loviest most adorable mum anyone can get for me not doing housework. Or even not working. All she can do is just to sit at the sofa after she come back form work, if the phone ring, I HAVE TO go to the living room and get the damn cordless phone for her to listen with her butt stuck at the sofa. If she want to have a drink I have to get my fucking legs to the kitchen and get the drink to her with her butt stuck to the sofa.


My dearest mu being a devotee to buddhism will ALWAYS nagged us to offer joss sticks thrice a day w/o fail. BUT! If we ask her to go pray, she will say her favourite quote :" I everyday work need to stand for so long, I come back home sit awhile also cannot meh? Still need to do all these." Kae... We have to pray. BUT! If we're working also. WE still need to do the stuff I listed above. Reaosn being :" U all work where got as xin ku as me? I also old liao, Of course feel more tired den u all la." FINE. It is never ending. If she is so damn fucking tired. Why does her mouth move non stop? Either by shouting for us to do this and that. If not on the blardy fucking fone for so damn blardy long.


Fine... This semester holiday... I wanted to enjoy every bit of it. YET! I gotta do laundries almost every fucking day. I did work for 7 days during this hols. Yet for ALL THE 7 days.... I also got to do laundries. I did not complain. because I know I will get the same crap again. "Your job so relaxed... Not tired at all... My job need to stanbd leg tired..." Fine lor... I do... Not my last week of holidays. CAN'T I EVEN HAVE PEACE FOR MY EARS? Nvm... my allowance had been on the hold for so damn long. And I think I have to survive on a 20 bucks per week allowance once school start. YET I can't use the computer in additon of your threats asking me to pay off the PUB Bill? I've really enough of all this shit. Now my favourite moments is to coop myself at home using the computer alone. I do admit I hate to go out with my mum. because all she have to say to me are just nags. I too, want to spend more time with her. But too sad for the fact is, I do not want to face all these crapshit as much as possible.


With such colourful life I had during this colourful exciting enjoyable holidays. Now with my sister working too. I have another mouth ranting at me to do he rlaundries if not she have no clothes to wear for work. Felt rather .... I forgot the word to describe my feeling. nvm... Is like I am always the one wearing clothes for the2nd time... Torn clothes and stuff like tt. Yet...... forget it. I am getting very very very tired of all these fuckshit.


And finding pple to go out with me is really hard as friends do have to work... Got their own outing with friends and whatsoever. So this actually reduce my time to perk me up. But they are jnot to blame. Sometime gotta blame it on myself too. Last min notice and stuff. And I have got no money (My allowance is on hold...) I really hate it. But still I am still trying to remind myself I am not the worst living creautre on earth. Because I am constantly reminding another friend of mine to look at the brighter side of life. Sigh.... I feel so tired...


I am typing this without any quarrel that erupted b4 this. I typed this with an accompanion of my favourite FM. Fm 84506.164 (My block + Unit Number). You guys shld know what I mean.


Small slight note for this post. Glad that taufik won. But I really think both taufik and Sly did well. 'Cept that I hate Sly's rendition of It's my life. Kaez.. That's all for my ranting.


.::On.e.verge.of.breaking.down::. [But don't worry pals, when I break down you wun know. Cuz it is just an internal turmoil. I will still appear normal. =) ]