Sianz..... Can feel the drainage of energy from my body. Just feel so tired out of the sudden. Feel very unhappy..... Don't know why.... Seems that my life is back to the black and white one again..... I appears to be happy ya? However, I do not know what I want........ What I wish for life........... What I am thinking...... Do not understand my existence............... Haizzz...... I am really very tired of how I am living my life now... Not saying I am sick and tired of living........ But I need a change..... But how?! I do not know...... Feel so lonely out of the sudden...... This kinda feeling can kill me know? I hate the feeling of emptiness and loneliness..... I dreaded this kinda feeling. I have a lot of things to say... But I do not know how to start....... I feel so empty within..... Always laughing and playing a fool in school and I do not know what I am doing. Shucks~ What's my existence in this world for? I do not know.... I am really very tired...............